What if I embarass myself?

"Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle." -anonymous

Sharing your honest insight on this world is a very difficult thing to do, your deepest thoughts.  I grew up in a household where this was not acceptable.  Why? It was our family's culture and perhaps because it is desirable to hide the negativity that is no doubt lurking.  There is something to be said for quiet suffering and "getting on with it."  You must do this in life, you must learn to do this.  However, there is also something to be said for thinking highly of yourself.  In order to do this, and this is one of the keys to feeling content as often as possible, you must understand that everyone around you is suffering in the same way.  The human experience does not differ as much as you might think.  This is the topic that I want to explore in depth. 

I admire writers of all kinds, especially when they publish honest books about their experience.  It is a very Western ideal to desire the creation in others of envy and jealousy.  Just take a look on Facebook.   This is not necessarily wrong and most of us are guilty of this.  I know I am.  The positive in this is that it can also inspire and encourage hope.  But it does have a destructive power to hurt and lead us all to wonder, "How do they do it? How are they so incredibly happy?"  Let us just go ahead and be honest, no one on this planet has truly sussed out how to be 100% happy all of the time.  So forgive yourself right now for never reaching that goal.

I am creating this blog because I am coming to realize my deeply analytical nature and my desire to share my thoughts with the world.  I struggle continuously with this desire because I also think, "who is actually going to want to read my thoughts?"  But finally today as I search on the internet for other's thoughts on various topics I am personally struggling with at the moment, I realize honesty is the key.  I discovered the beauty and freedom of honesty when I was about 5 years old, funny how it's taken me so many years to get on with the honesty.

One day I would like to write a story or a book.  I would like to share things I have learned in this life to perhaps provide some relief, hope, or simply share suffering and share happiness with others.  If I truly want to realize this dream, I have to practice.  So here it goes.